Taking a leap of faith.

Faith is defined as

“having complete confidence or trust in something or someone”.

There are many instances in life where faith is necessary.

For me, faith has triumphed many moments of doubt, fear and down right disbelief in myself. Which is why I believe It is important for me to share this post.

Making the decision to follow your gut is NOT easy. These decisions are usually the most difficult. When you choose to follow your intuition, it is a moment of parallel forces working against each other.

On one end of the spectrum there are your dreams, ambitions and desires. On the other, presents societal norms and the "be practical".

I am not "nay saying" the logistics, but I am enforcing that - not all part of following your gut is easy. But it is SO worth it.

On the outside we can put on these masks or facades that everything is easy peasy, wherever the wind blows. On the inside it may be that the winds are blowing a tornado of past programing from society beliefs and what you are taught as a child. Inside, your heart just knows it’s right. Inside your mind you fight, put up the “talk to the hand” and turn every corner when “being practical” tries to burst your bubble.

This is where Faith sets in.

Faith is that tool you can utilize when every bit of logistics are trying to detour you from just doing it. Taking that leap. Following your dreams.

Faith is what calms your nerves when you are lying in bed, 2 AM, questioning what kind of backpack you will need. What if your car doesn’t sell asap. Shoot, forgot to select seat for the flight.

All of those thoughts you have to step aside from, and realize that there is nothing you can do “right now” but have faith. The universe will provide.

When I first arrived into New Zealand in March I remember after a 13+ hour flight I had to catch my domestic flight over to Nelson. After passing customs and having my shoes inspected because of the dirt I had to hustle my way to find a terminal across the street.

This meant, jet legged and all I had to navigate with less that a half hour, across this international airport.

I hopped on the “hopefully” right trolly to the next terminal, had my bag get reevaluated and no idea if my flight was already boarding. Amongst all that, I had faith. Faith that no matter if I caught this flight, I was here, and now all I could do was trust fully that everything would be how it was meant to be.

Surprisingly I had made time, was able to get an espresso, and relish in the moment.

In this moment, today, there is about a month and a half until the departure on this new journey.

I do have the tornado of my mind waking me up at odd hours to make sure I consider “where should my plants go when I leave” …. Ya know, the important stuff.

I have to remind myself that thoughts happen all day. They are just like clouds passing. Just ideas.

I have to remind myself to trust myself completely and believe that everything will be what is meant to be.

This moment has this not been anything but an exciting adventure. This has also not been a walk in the park. May the many faces we portray be washed off one day and reveal us all as humans who truly have no idea what we are doing.

Until then, trust the universe fully.

xxxx

Leap.